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Wednesday, December 29, 2004

argh

sound at aposento and sandwich, 6 cycle mind and 2 other great bands at capones TONIGHT. just a few meters away from my office. I WANNA GO! but then i don't have anyone to go with so boohoo! (my officemates aren't the type who goes to gigs and i don't wanna go alone) ='( just when the gigs are oh so near, they seem to be so far...

mel =) @ 9:45 PM

little miss smarty pants

i just recently bought a copy of sophie's world.

for someone who reads quite fast compared to the rest of the world (okay, so i'm exaggerating..but i do really read fast), i'm just on my 40 sumthing page (which my sister noticed). i dunno, i think i'm trying to absorb what i'm reading? it's a great bulk of information on philosophy and when i finish it, i hope to have at least learned something from it (not the usual type that when you're finished with a book, you forget about it). i think this is the new me. i want to learn more, gain new information, be smart? haha =b i'm in a "i wanna be like my dad who's really brilliant and knows a bit of everything about anything" phase, and hopefully, it's something i won't grow out of very easily.

i was browsing through the rivermaya forums a few days ago and i can't help but admire (hmm, can't think of a better word) at how rico answered one of the questions there. i can't remember what he actually said but i think he compared other's music as a drop of water (rain?) in the ocean which isn't enough to cause a wave (or something to that effect). how profound. yea, well, i know he's like fucking smart and everything. and somehow, now that i'm in this "gain more new information" phase, i wanna be able to say something quite profound too. right now, i don't see myself saying those words, heck, i'm not even that good in writing. maybe someday, i will.

mel =) @ 11:38 AM

Sunday, December 26, 2004

feliz navidad!

you know how some people say to not get uber excited and hyped up for something a few days before because your excitement might not last till the day itself? i find it kinda true (well, the opposite of it, actually).

christmas is really something to be excited for, yet as i've mentioned earlier, i haven't quite felt that it was already nearing. not until several hours later when it finally sank in - hey, it is really gonna be christmas! hehe. it was the only time i got really psyched up for it, and i was really really hyped up at that. it was a wonderful feeling; i don't think i've been that excited for christmas in years. maybe having to work till the 24th is a good thing after all. ;)

we had the usual noche buena, after having said a christmas prayer, with christmas carols playing at the background. kinda funny, when feliz navidad played, we all started swaying our heads, even my dad! haha. crazy crazy.

gifts were opened later on, not the usual number, probably because my dad already retired from the bank early this year (and we all know how working in a bank draws a lot of gifts). it was still fun nevertheless. i was really happy when i saw my mom's reaction when she got my gift (a red bag from girbaud which she really wanted); she was ecstatic. so was my sister kate and my sister grace when they saw their gifts. gayle, when she opened my gift, acted surprised because she actually already saw what was inside before it was wrapped! :( but anyway, she liked it. i think my dad liked his gift too, which was a ducks unlimited shirt. as usual, when he got the gift, he made such a kulit comment like ano to, nakuha mo ng 90% discount ano? my dad can be a riot sometimes, one of the traits that i truly love about him.

while i really like receiving more than giving (i mean, who doesn't, right?), giving comes a really close second (and there are only two choices. haha). it gives you this great feeling that you made a person really happy, never mind if you spend a lot, and you turn out less richer in the end (even broke, probably). the payback is doubled, even tripled. :)

to everyone, i hope you all had a merry and blessed christmas just like i did. =)

mel =) @ 1:57 AM

Friday, December 24, 2004

christmas

In less than a day, it's gonna be christmas. Yet no matter how much i psyched myself up, playing those christmas carols on my pc, doing my christmas shopping and oogling over the gifts i received (no matter how few), i just don't feel it. :(

Must it be because i'm already working? Back when i was still in school, i looked forward to our last day because then, there would be nothing to worry about on the next few days. i was free to do whatever i want, focus on the fact that it's nearing christmas and just enjoy being, umm lazy? haha. Now that i'm working, my mind seems to be all so caught up with it that i didn't quite notice that christmas was approaching. well yeah, i could feel the cold (thus signaling the season) but it still lacks the spirit. i even missed simbang gabi :( and that's one christmas ritual that i've always looked forward to every year.

is this how "grown-ups" feel during the christmas season? i wonder how they do it. i don't think i've adjusted.

hopefully, when christmas is just a few hours away, i'd truly feel it and really celebrate. it is a time of great celebration after all.

thank god we have the christmas eve off. i don't know how i'd survive christmas in the office and without my family. although, boo, i think we have to work on new year's eve. aww shucks.

mel =) @ 6:40 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2004

grrr

It pisses me off how some people come off as if they are sincere and really mean what they say even though their actions speak otherwise.

You don't need to suck up to be on any one's good side. The truth, even it hurts, is still appreciated. Better yet, don't say anything at all.

Anyway, on to other better(?) news, i just downloaded pachelbel's canon in D and i think it's gonna be my song on repeat for the next hour (and maybe the next? hehe). makes you wanna get married! (on second thought, not really) I remember my sassy girl, one of my favorite movies! (it's the movie to watch..not your typical chick flick ;))

i hope one day, i find my own gyeon woo! awwwwww.. so cute and wonderful! :)

mel =) @ 10:35 PM

lsd!

Honestly speaking, i didn't plan on buying the special edition, because one, i already have the album and two, i already have the lsd mp3. Let's be practical here. If i were to spend 250 bucks on a cd, I'd probably buy something from my wish list. but when i saw this...

I didn't think twice. heck, I'm buying the album! (despite the reasons mentioned above =b) And I did. For a new release, I didn't think it was that hard to find. There was none in tower records and music one, makati (is it really sold out or do they not have it yet? i'm thinking it's the former) I finally found one in odyssey in park square, and there were only two copies left (now, there's only one =b). Yay!

I told lia the news a few days ago and she was just as happy as I am. :) We were like, let's buy the album and give it as a christmas gift! haha.(o diba, more people are gonna be having the album just because mike thanked us. hahahahaha)

I think i just might do that.

mel =) @ 9:57 AM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

faithless

until we tumble we are faithless...
until our senses fail we are faithless...
until we falter we are faithless...

this song has been on repeat for the past hour already. haha. and i haven't gotten tired of it. i don't think i ever will...yet. what's with this song? probably the beat.

shucks, i'm thinking i must have said the wrong word when i sang this one line. ack, isang linya na nga lang, mali pa >_< hey, give me a break, i don't exactly sing in front of a lot of people, and i was really nervous at that time. (haha, defensive)

i think i'm just being paranoid.

mel =) @ 2:24 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

the ground christmas party!

the ground christmas party was fun fun fun! hehe.

i met new friends - nabz and neil (who came all the way from bulacan!) and maya! i hope to see them at future gigs ;)

i actually won something at the raffle! haha. i knew i've always been really lucky. back in college at my org, i actually won in the only two raffles we had during my time, one was a cake (which i incidentally donated as a prize. haha) and a P300 worth prepaid card.

bad trip, they made me sing. boo. (and i thought trisha and i got away from it when we went out for a while for coffee). i thought they were just gonna ask a question or something. sneaky!! ah, i guess it was ok, it was just one line, after all. heh.

too bad i wasn't able to take a lot of pictures, being the camwhore that i am (i only have just one). :( well, there's always maya's video. haha. hopefully i'll get to have a copy and see how i made a fool of myself (no one can make me sing anymore after that!)

here's me and trisha =)

here's what i won =)

i am a very proud owner of a signed drum head of mark escueta! yeah baby! this one's gonna be worth a lot of money someday, and i own it! ^_^ it'd be fun to show it off to my kids and grandkids someday (maybe around 20-30 years from now) and tell them of how i actually knew the band. hehe.

mel =) @ 10:15 PM

Monday, December 20, 2004

my birthWEEK! and some stuff

i just didn't celebrate my birthday, i celebrated my birthweek! hehe. up until saturday, a lot of people still greeted me for my birthday (and my birthday was a wednesday.) haha. i've always believed that it's the thought that counts so i don't mind if they greeted me later. :) it was awfully nice that they remembered.

my officemates gave me this really big birthday card and this cake from bizu which i didn't really expect (expect the unexpected!). awwwww... thanks guys! i really do have a family in pointwest ^_^

***
last saturday has been really tiring. i attended our christmas party at merck's at the earlier part of the evening. (i didn't win any raffle prizes. :( but i did have a star under my chair and for that i won a prize! hehe. i've always been lucky ;)) i had to leave early coz it was also the same night my friends were coming to the house to celebrate my birthday (it was the only day they were free). i was a bit disappointed coz the others who promised to go kinda backed out (due to unavoidable reasons) and only a few came. but i was really glad and thankful for the few that came (it was already a blessing in itself). we got the chance to catch up on stuff. hope we do this again sometime (and next time, we should be complete!)

***
i've been recently addicted to movie and music quizzes lately (those excel files wherein you score a point for getting the right answer). it was fun to figure out how much i knew about music and movies(and how much i don't) kinda nerve-racking but still fun nevertheless. for a specific quiz, it was hard figuring the title of the songs (i had to sing through the entire song just to find out that the title wasn't there. =b) but it was a good thing there were a lot of us answering so we just traded answers. =b i was quite inis when they told me the titles of some of the songs because i knew them too, i just didn't remember them at that time (i was like, oo nga noh)

it was fun answering this one quiz with mark! haha. i was kinda not so surprised at the number of songs he was able to guess the title of (since he was older than me and he was in the music business), but i was surprised he knew a LOT (really) and for that i look up to him (wish i also knew that amount of music info). it was already a given that he'd get a higher score than me. without any help, he got an 80+ out of a 100 while a got a measely 60+ (same as rico's! haha). together we were able to figure out the rest of the songs except two (98's not so bad! =b). it was really fun giving out clues to each other.

mark: ginawang zesto commercial...
me: first word? 19 kopong kopong pa ata yung commercial na yun eh

mark: 71?
mel: hahahaha. backstreet boys kumanta nyan
mark: ah, dapat alam ko yan...
mel: lol
mark: ano ibang words?
mel: di ko alam e. baka yung masabi ko, sounds like lang. hehe
mark: ahh... i want it that way?
mark: yun tama :)
basta, ang kukulit ng mga hirit. hehe.

mel =) @ 3:03 AM

Thursday, December 16, 2004

am i that forgettable that i had to be introduced again to the same person on several occasions? boo me. =(

mel =) @ 11:09 PM

birthday!

and so my birthday finally ended.

it was spent rather okay, with a gig capping the evening off. roxy actually forgot it was tonight! good thing she still went, otherwise, i'd be alone. oh but wait, i saw belay, farah and elaine and i hung out with them after roxy left. hehe. we even got to go backstage =b god's really good to me. :)

i feel like posting here rather than in lj all the people who greeted me.

lots of thanks --
to all who greeted me way before it was my birthday and through friendster - tito jom, buddy sam, jen, buddy vangie, tet, miss beth! that little cake in friendster really is quite useful. ;)

to tracy - yep, hopefully one day, i'll meet (and you'll also meet) THE one. :)

to sarah and jm - i can't wait for saturday!!! miss you guys ^_^

to joycesan and reden - you surprised me. i didn't think you remembered. awwww ^_^

to cha, ponay, reese and mara - my AC friends/barkada! hope to see you one of these days, during a gig maybe? ;)

to ronnie, buddy rache, buddy ervin, boubert, chris! - miss you my UPMC fwends =)

to vina - kelan nga kaya kyo magkakadady noh? =b ...sus naman, diba pag anak mo, forever na yun? hehe. =)

to jown - parang kailan nga lang nung ipinanganak kita! wahahahahaha! so that would be when i was umm, 3 years old? you are 19 now right? hehe.

to markmaya, my nfymf (newly found y!mate and friend! hehe =b). if ever you get to read this, i owe you a libre one of these days (pramiz!). hindi ka naman cguro ganun katakaw. haha =b

to belay, farah, elaine, mike who greeted me just because i told them it was my birthday. hehe. (cge na, loser na kung loser. =b)

to roxy - losers stick together =b

to kate - my cute little sister, who gave me for a present a piece of candy, 2 barbie stickers from her collection and a picture of herself. awwww. ^_^

to grace - cge, ok na kahit wala kong gift =b

to gayle - thanks for the card and everyone who signed. sayang walang pirma ni lia at ng maya. pero ok na rin. touched ako. heehee.

to all those whom i failed to mention, i thank you guys too. i'm sorry i forgot :o

*kissabayhug*

edit: how could i forget my officemates? hehe. andie, ner, mabel, chow, cathy, pj and mam beth, lotsa thanks!!! :)

to dang and kharmie - thanksamunchie! better late than never.

mel =) @ 2:55 AM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

22!

in a few hours, i'm turning 22. a year older and hopefully a year wiser. another year to discover what life has to offer and know more about how the world works.

looking back at my 21 years, i'd say i had a pretty good life. i've been really blessed, so much blessed in fact that i sometimes don't think i deserve it. i've also been really loved by the people around me, one of the things i am most grateful of. there hasn't been any moments which you'd call really low and down (which i hope wouldn't happen anytime in the near future =b)

the year that was has certainly been quite eventful, though not exactly the type that would make today's news. highlights would probably be getting my job (which i'm really enjoying :) i'm so loving it) and meeting this really great band which i think has done quite a bit of change in my life. i certainly wasn't the same person i was before.

i'm wondering what's in store for me as i turn 22.

mel =) @ 10:37 PM

aw gawd

just got news that FPJ's dead. well, given his condition, i kinda already saw this one coming.

it's a good thing he didn't win the presidency. otherwise, noli de castro would succeed him and given the news/rumors circulating about him, i don't think that it would be great for the country. him being vice president is bad enough.

mel =) @ 3:25 AM

<\3

i just realized i want out.

i didn't think i'd fall out of love. :'(

mel =) @ 2:07 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

a prayer

We often experience life's struggles and difficulties
...it has become natural for us to zero in on the difficulties
We fail to see the light in the darkness,
to see the joy in sadness
We fail to see the purpose in the life He gave us
We fail to realize that it is in Him we should trust
We fail to be patient when he does not answer
We fail to recognize that He makes our lives better...

mel =) @ 2:46 PM

my wish list

everyone seems to be in a wish list frenzy these days (given that it is nearing christmas).

joining the bandwagon, i'm posting my own wish list =b

edit:i've decided to retain my wish list, just in case anyone feels generous =b

♥ cd's of the following:
[opm] full rivermaya and eheads discography,~~orange and lemons~~, nancyspungen, ~~kitchie nadal~~, sandwich's grip stand and throw (i only have it on tape), parokya ni edgar's inuman sessions, ciudad, stonefree, barbie's cradle

[foreign]~~coldplay's parachutes~~, jeff buckley's grace, any of ani difranco, third eye blind's first album, matchbox 20's yourself or someone like you, dashboard confessional's a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar, maroon 5's songs about jane, best of the cure, goo goo dolls' a boy named goo, any of counting crows, punk goes pop, the OC ost, Disney OST's (such as the Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast)

♥ an IPOD with all my mp3s

♥ original DVD's of the following:
Little Mermaid, Beauty and the Beast, Alladin, Pocahontas, the Lion King, Mulan, Anastasia, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, the Sound of Music (notice the pattern? =b)

♥ full seasons of the following: (either on VCD or DVD)
FRIENDS (1-10), Alias (1-3), Smallville (1-2), Gilmore Girls (1-5)

♥ books:
those by John Grisham, Paulo Coelho and Dan Brown (i've read all his books but only on pdf, i want all of 'em in paperback), Chronicles of Narnia

♥ laptop with wi-fi

♥ new cellphone!

♥ new digicam

♥ shoes, shoes and more shoes (you can never have enough of these) ~~especially new birks~~

♥ guitar (my skills have really been quite rusty) and driving lessons (even though i know i'd rather have someone drive me, which is why until now, i still don't know how to =b)

♥ to learn flash, dreamweaver, programming, etc. anything IT-related

♥ meet and hang out with all my friends whom i haven't seen in a long time (because everyone's been busy)

♥ ~~for everyone to enjoy and have a very happy christmas (despite the unfortunate events that happened); the birth of Christ is reason enough to celebrate~~ i'd like to believe that everyone had a happy christmas ;)

♥ happiness and world peace! :) (hehe, mala-beauty pageant! =b)

whew, now that was a long one.

mel =) @ 4:31 AM

Saturday, December 11, 2004

it's a small world

blogger's been having problems. boo.

anyhoo, here i was again browsing through lj's and i actually chanced upon the lj of the sister of none other than mr mark =b

from reading it, there's just one thing i have to say - parang i want to be his sister na! hehe. ;)

the world is indeed getting smaller and smaller because of lj.

mel =) @ 8:12 AM

Thursday, December 09, 2004

from lj

something i got from livejournal:

I want you to post anything that you want in reply to this entry.

Anything. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love, an opinion, a critique --- anything. Be sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post twice if you'd like. (Maybe more.) Then, put this in your LJ (or in this case, blog) to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your blog) have to say. This can be about me, or anything you want. Regardless, just use the "anonymous" radio button to post anonymously. You can reveal who you are if you want.

i'm wondering if anyone does read my blog. well erm, let's see.

mel =) @ 11:16 PM

on mass and cellphones

it irks me how some people do not seem to put their phones to silent mode during the mass. a while ago, while i attended the mass (since it was a holy day of obligation), the phone of the woman beside me goes off. it was bad enough that her phone was ringing. what's worse is that she answered it! >_<

can't one be phone-deprived even for an hour for God's sake? is that how much of a necessity it is these days?

mel =) @ 1:20 AM

Friday, December 03, 2004

finally, after working for 11 months or so, i finally experience having not to go to work because of the storm. and to think we were all joking the night before about not going to work (calling in sick) because of the ton of load we were going to have.heh :b

oh the storm. hope and pray it doesn't do damage than it already has.

on unrelated news, dial-up sucks! gah. i've been wanting to download some pretty good covers from this great community i've joined recently but it would take too long a time if i download them now at home. wish i was on T1 or DSL. now that would make my day. guess i would just have to wait on going back to work to download them. hehe. the perks of working for an IT company - uber fast connection and download to the max! (well, just not using kazaa or limewire, we do still have limitations) :)

mel =) @ 3:32 AM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

given the luxury of time i have in the office, i've been hopping from blog to blog and journal to journal lately. it seems addicting reading the entries of different people, both whom i know and don't. somehow i am able to sneak a peak into their lives which are maybe not that interesting yet seem to be quite colorful by the way they write. makes me wish sometimes that i could write as well as them so that maybe, even in writing, my life wouldn't turn out as ordinary as it really is.

mel =) @ 6:40 PM

about me

sleepaholic (yet an insomniac), charlie & claire shipper, music addict, english guru, proud to be pinoy =)

♥ me likey

the OC, LOST, smallville, gigs, blogs and ljs, crosswords, the world wide web, ruins (aka good shepherd bazaar =b) and DV, indie, fab fashion finds, more gigs, hanging out, mafia and maya, coffee and tv, birthdays and birthday cards, color blue, movies, opm, covers and acoustics, icons and avatars, emoticons, y!m